Willow wants to leave here, well not really. But she’s scared and wants out. I understand, recently Buffy died and that in itself is a lot to deal with but also with all the other deaths. It’s catching up and is beginning to be to much.
Jordy’s back home in LA, I didn’t want to risk anything having him live here, he’s best at home.
Maybe leaving here would also be best for Willow and I, but the two of us could never leave our friends behind, and it’s irrational to think that we could al just get out of this town.
I don’t know what to do.
I called Xander and left a message on his machine.
"Hey, it's Will. I know we haven't talked in a while, and I miss you. Actually, I was wondering what you're up to, because maybe you'd like to get together sometime and hang out? I don't know what your schedule's like, but I'm sure you could find some free time for your best friend, right?"
"Anyway, get back to me. I miss you."
For months now I have tried so hard gain back what I have slowly lost, my sanity. The demon in my head for so long has tried to gain control of me and make me a monster again but I think I might be getting back control. Hundreds of years buried under a volcanic mountain cave while imprisoned and tortured, you think I was past the point of no return. Infact, I thought I would never be in control again but know I able feel something like a person again and not that of an animal. Maybe there is still hope for me but there will be none when I find the Master.
I hate this world. Oz is the only good thing in it.
There are days I just want to run away with him and never come back, give up on all this fighting evil business and just go be normal. Maybe re-apply to Oxford, get a degree there.
I just don't know any more.
I haven't seen Oz in days, and he doesn't answer the phone when I call. It's like he's avoiding me, but he wouldn't do that. He's not like that.
I need to talk to Buffy. Or Xander. Someone who'll understand and listen to my worried babble, then tell me everything's okay. Heck, I'd go to my mom if I thought she'd be at all sympathetic, but she wouldn't. So, no point. *sigh*
It’s the first full moon night this month and I’m locking myself up. Usually I don’t, it only makes things worse, but after the dream I had last night I can’t not.
…In my dream I killed Willow.
I stayed away from her, everybody all day. Avoided seeing anyone, skipped school didn’t leave my room, missed band practice. I was really freaked.
We have reached Sunnydale and we are finally at full strength after feeding off blood at local meat market. Although the taste isn't as satisfying as the real thing, We must remain on this diet from now on We can't hurt any one else ever again. Well we can't hurt thoses that don't deserve it anyways. Now we must prepare our self for war against The Master and all his dogs. We will unleash all the power we have to have our vengence.
London , Great Britain
After Germany, we went to France and learned again why I hate the French, damn Pufters. We have traveled now to Great Britain, its been so long since we was home we just wish it was more welcoming. Hoping to seek out the one who stuck us out in that hole in the ground we started searching every rat infested hole. The vampires at the local pub were quite helpful before we killed them. Our journeys now lead us to the so called new world, a town known as Sunnydale, California.
I don’t like this initiative place that Erin has been staying at, it seems so dangerous for someone so young to be going to but that wasn’t what freaked me out the most. When we walked in all of the demons started freaking out yelling slayer and trying to get at us, but Buffy wasn’t there.
The woman Maggie assumed that I was the slayer but that is impossible, couldn’t tell her why but me being a demon I cant be a slayer…and Buffy cant be dead.
When Erin and I left we headed home, I talked to her about getting back to school and she told me how she met a guy, Oz’s cousin Jordy actually. He’s a pretty cool kid, met him a few times.
After Erin fell asleep during our movie I left and went for a walk when I head “Slayer” being growled from behind me then got jumped and thrown to the ground, in response fire shot out my hands and dusted him. I sat there in shock a moment then hurried off to Buff’s needing answer’s but no one answered so I just went home and sat on the couch all night just thinking.
After dropping Erin off at school the next morning I walked into the library looking for Mr. Giles but found a lady there instead “Where’s Mr. Giles???”
“he doesn’t work here any longer, may I he-”
I cut her off “address…do you have his??”
“I’m sorry miss but that is confidential”
I growled at her annoyed then hurried off back to my car and back home where I sat on my computer and broke into the schools system.
“What’s his name…um.. Robert? No.. Rudolf? No… Rup...Rupert! Ha! Bingo” I said to myself as I typed it in and it all came up.
I wrote it down then hurried off to his house, parked and went to the door knocking.
“Mr. Giles?? Its Ariel Morgan…you know me from the school. I really need to talk to you” I called through the door almost begging.
My Erin came back home again, thank god she is alright and hasn’t been harmed, I’m so grateful for that.
She told me that she has been staying with this woman named Maggie but the part that scared me was she said it was at this demon capturing place but I don’t think that they know she is a demon, powerless yes, but demon none the less
Speaking of that I want to sit down with her soon and talk to her about why I did what I did, make sure she understands. I don’t want her hating me like she said she did, cant have her hating me…she’s everything to me.
We talked a little bit about me and Veruca, she hates her but I don’t understand why. I love Veruca more then Erin could ever understand and I need them to get along or I know it wont ever work, no matter how badly I want it to, but in the end I know Erin comes first in my life, has always been like that and well always be.
I wanted to meet Maggie so I followed her in and looked around nervously.
As we walked past the glass containers that held the demons they all started freaking out, growling, snarling, yelling.
“Slayer!” a few growled as they pounded to get out.
I backed away with Erin “What’s going on???”
((open for Erin and/or maggie))